Crocheted Toilet Paper Dolls for Everyone!

I was pretty proud of myself because I was consistently writing in this blog at least once a month, but then I suddenly stopped and have not picked it up until now. I realized that very soon after I wrote my last post, I discovered I was pregnant. As far as life changing things go, that's pretty big. So I haven't been writing because I have actually been very seriously focusing on my family, which is good and all, but it's also good for me to keep writing.

So now here's the hard part. I would like to keep writing, but because of this life changing time, I would really like to write about the coolness going on in my life right now (a tiny human growing inside me) and less about the random things by brain comes up with (because the biggest thing on my mind right now is that tiny human). The problem is, I feel like this would turn into a baby blog, and this is most certainly not a baby blog. The other problem is, I cringe inside to start a baby blog. It's not that there's anything horribly wrong with a baby blog; it's just the association I have with people and baby blogs. I feel like it's a little... cheesy? Like giving crocheted toilet paper dolls to everyone for Christmas, you may have put a lot of effort into it, and for a second it might be cute, but in the end it's cheesy and weird.

They're so.... practical?

Anyway, I actually really enjoy baby blogs, which is fine. And in reality, what's wrong with liking crocheted toilet paper dolls either? Nothing really, it's just I know that a large amount of people would prefer to not have them shoved in their face every Christmas. It's the same thing with baby blogs. I know at least some people would really prefer not to have my baby's latest and greatest achievement (OMG GUYZ!!! Baby-sweetiekins* had his first poopoo!!!!) spamming their wall every hour. *Baby-sweetiekins isn't a nickname. That's actually our first pick for boy's names. Lublub-meemers is our choice for a baby girl.

But who knows, maybe there are some people who like baby blogs as much as I do. In fact, I secretly had an obsession with them six months before I even told Matthew that I wanted to have a baby. I devoured these blogs full of the secret lives of the stay at home mom. I stalked forums about pregnancy for hours a day, eating up as much information as I could about babies. When my first niece was born, I cried on the way home from the hospital after holding her for the first time because I realized 1) how much I wanted to be a mom and 2) how terrifying babies really were (they're not really, but I had a freak out moment holding that one-hour-old life, realizing how utterly dependent she was). Needless to say, I was strangely obsessed and conflicted about becoming a mother. I had problems.... 

Basically, one of the things that truly calmed this conflict was reading my friend's baby blog. She talked about having similar feelings and about the difficulties that came when she and her husband finally decided to try for a baby and were unsuccessful for the first 8 or 9 months. Her words comforted me so much because I felt like I was in a similar situation. After reading that, I realized how few baby blogs were out there that talked about becoming a young mother, becoming a mother in college, and the emotional rollercoaster that comes even before getting pregnant. Finding my friend's blog was like finding a gem of comfort from someone who was in a similar situation but had the knowledge that came from being a little further up the road of life than I was.

Sometimes I wonder if I have any friends who are currently in the conflicted position I was a year and a half ago. I wonder if any of them are thinking about becoming a mom, or are currently trying for a baby and finding disappointment, or are pregnant now and enjoy reading and comparing other's experiences. And when I think about how nice it would've been in those times to read about my friend's experiences, I realized that I really would like to write a baby blog, if not for my own sanity's sake, then perhaps for someone else's. Also, I'm sure there are some people out there who I don't get to see much who actually would like to know Baby-sweetiekins/Lublub-meemers latest and greatest achievements.

So are you going to write a baby blog?

Yes. In fact I'm starting one up right now. But let's not call it a baby blog. How about the "Baby Adventure Blog" or something like that? Anyway, I'm saying goodbye to this blog for a little bit, unless I have some random non-baby related thing I need to rant about on here. Until then, I'll try to update the Baby Adventure Blog as much as... well as much as I want I guess :)

P.S. Alright, so I've put my Baby Adventure Blog together. Here's the link if you want to check it out: http://tinyormeadventures.blogspot.com/